The Winter is Coming
If you follow Game of Thrones, you know what this phrase means. This phrase has been now often repeated by the startup ecosystem as well. I will come back in later editions on what this ecosystem is, but personally for me also this phrase seems to be apt. As I look back into my eight months of start-up experiment, I am figuring out on a daily basis more about myself rather than anything more. The journey I talk about is me and my own trials and tribulations.
The picture possibly captures my current state of mind !
I had a cushy job by all means, everything was going pretty well. I definitely was not the rock star, but to give credit to myself , I was not stagnating either. I was doing my best to lift the status quo and though I did not help cross the chasm, I managed to get incremental improvements going on a day to day basis and believe for myself to have put the ladder to cross the chasm.
So, what was it ?
Was it
- Arrogance that I could do anything I wanted ?
- The seed of ‘Building World Class’ Products ?
- Leaving behind a legacy ?
- Make Money Faster ?
- Work for yourself ?
- Not being a ‘Cog’ in the wheel ?
- Figuring out how far I would go ?
- Ignorance of not knowing my own limits ?
- …
I have never felt so vulnerable in my entire life and this journey is going to reveal myself about myself.
Am I preacher or a practitioner ?
Too early for the Jury to be out on this.
For the moment, I am clinging on .
I am writing this straight from the heart and as I do the surgery of my own heart as I breathe, I hope it shall help as a guide to navigate to your own inner selves, and help you discover some questions or answers that come up once in a while. I have to come to believe that the only race I run is with my own self.
Simon Sinek says start with the “Why” ?
What was my “Why” ?
I hope I can answer there in the next iteration of my Startup-Journey which I intend to update every fortnight.
Enjoy Maadi. (Have Fun).
Zunder
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Dear Zunder
First let me acknowledge that when I see your writing, it is infectious. It makes me feel “Why” I am not writing-:) Your writing is simple, candid and it also takes the reader through your mind! Kudos! Continue the good work, as it really kicks people like me to pen my thoughts! Being a stubborn guy, I am write now putting this thought of penning my thoughts in my bucket list-:)
Exploring the “why” along with you:
1. I should have left Integra in 2008, when we sent around 100+ people for business reasons. Not because of any guilty conscience, but I also did not have 100% work. The same reason, why we sent our employees-:)
2. But I felt the organisation has been slightly insensitive in dealing with employee issues and may hurt some of the good employees who have been contributing sincerely.
3. I thought I can “protect” them and also “Be there” to usher in the right change management process when required
4. I began to realise none of the above could really happen slowly and in the process found that my utilization has come down to as low as 30%.
5. I realised, that will be only hiding behind a lofty ideals, but lose on the fundamentals of learning continuously, utilizing my abilities and become a misfit in the emerging changing world.
6. My “Why” became more clear and then I decided to take the “Road Less Travelled”
Ha Ha – I have also written-:)
Thanks for the trigger.
BTW – What is carpe diem? I have trouble with English. You start using other languages?
regards
t.k.ramesh
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Carpe Diem is Seize the Day !!
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